You’ve got this! Clearly the relationship isn’t fulfilling and possibly even abusive if you’re having trouble to end it.

I understand your fear of losing the familiarity and comfort of a relationship even if it isn’t good for you. But you are wrong, you DO have the courage AND the strength to leaves and I believe you can and will. You aren’t wrong for feeling this way, nor are you wrong for deciding to leave. I know what you describe feels like anxiety or maybe guilt or even guilt, but you must be selfish sometimes, think about yourself, and what you need too, because your feelings, thoughts, mental, and emotions matter just as much as anyone else. You are not alone, and you can count on alot of people to support you through your journey, from friends, family, or even online, I’m always willing to listen and comfort you! You’ve been staying strong through this relationship which is not good for you, imagine how much better you will feel once you’ve left it. Stay strong OP, and keep your head up.

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i understand completely how terrifying it is to walk away from a situation like this, i'm sorry your stuck in that place of mind and that relationship, it really sucks. i hope you can find the strength and end things in a way that your partner understands its over, it can be tricky when you yourself are so unsure and scared but i can promise you your mental wellbeing and safety matter more than anything they have to say or do in retaliation, whether it be negative or accepting. i wish you luck & sorry if this is completely irrelevant advice this post just reminded me of my own past relationship and someone else i know and miss, if it comes off as more projecting i apologise!