One of my worst traits is my jealousy. I'm pretty much jealous of everyone. It gets into tricky territory w my friends especially,, whenever I see one of my closest friends talking to someone else I get so jealous n upset n it makes my head spin. what I feel doesn't come from a place if control, i do not wish to do that,, I wanna see her happy n see her making friends n having fun ,, happiness without me. I feel more.. Possessive, n scared, I'm scared I'll get replaced n abandoned ,,, it terrifies me. I can't bear to lose someone dear to me again. I'd openly break apart if it happened again. All my mind circles to is "please don't leave me, I'd beg for you to js stay, id do anything, I love you" I constantly feel like I'm battling the extremely emotional part of me w being rational n it drives me insane tryna keep it together . I wish I didn't feel this way,, I understand it likely comes from from a place of insecurity n trust issues w ppl, maybe even at a stretch abandonment or attachment issues (AP) w ppl </3 I feel so far gone n actually crazy compared to everyone else cuz of how dramatic n irrational my thoughts are ,. I know it's not true, so why do I believe it??? :(