after I pretty much stopping engaging romantically w someone who I was never in a relationship w,(it was likee almost there but it wasn't genuine, it wasn't true,, ) what we had rightfully never really had n likely never will have a label beyond best friend n I've accepted that ! Now after having my first time experiencing anything somewhat close adjacent to a relationship I find myself wanting more of it,, not necessarily from them but anyone in general.. I suddenly feel the loneliness of not being in a relationship w anyone n I'm single,,, I used to be chill w it cuz I'd never experienced it before but now I'm craving it. I want it, so badly now. I wish someone would treat me that sweetly again. Pet names, compliments, flirting,, something close to romantic affection, safety n kindness when I'm feeling low,, being treated like a goddamn princess, or what my first experience of it showed me. Is this wha rebound relationships do to ppl??? Sighhh I've never actually had a relationship before n I was always a hopeless romantic but this feels so much more different than simply falling in love w ppl , I want a genuine valentine this year dude </3