You have a gut feeling, you have this ”information” that might be right or wrong. Building these walls is comforting, I know. But when they get destroyed? Don’t let past lovers destroy what can be your future. In my pov I wouldn’t trust him, but I wouldn’t know. Ask yourself. Are you blinded right now? Or does it actually feel genuine. Here’s the problem, when you’re blinded, you can’t really tell. So if you have friends or some people that might know. Ask them, how do they see things and such. And if you and that guy are close enough, ask him. I know you want to believe him, but why do you want to believe him? Do you know how many other people will love you in your life. Do you know how much more loved you can be. This is a tough situation, annndd love makes you fragile during tough situations. But think about , make a pros and cons list. It’s a complex answer I have and I’m so so sorry , I just hope you understand. But is it worth it? Is this the guy you want to feed ducks and wake up next too? Someone who you’re not afraid to be yourself with? Or is it just a guy you can talk to through a screen and feel loved. I’m sorry if this didn’t galet but take care of yourself stranger, I hope it gets better<3