Hey I don’t know you, but I’m really glad you shared this instead of keeping it inside. What you’re describing sounds incredibly heavy, and it makes sense that you’re exhausted after carrying this pain for so long. The fact that you still want friends, connection, and love tells me there’s a part of you that hasn’t given up even if it feels buried right now.Depression and BPD are cruel in how they convince us that we’re the problem or that nothing can change. But those thoughts are symptoms, not truths about who you are or what your future can be. You are not broken beyond repair, and you are not impossible to love your brain is just hurting and lying to you.You don’t have to live for other people yet.Sometimes the goal is just to stay another day, another hour, another moment. That is enough. Please consider reaching out to someone who can help you through this whether that’s a therapist, or a doctor

I may not know you personally but I'm glad that you chose to say all this rather than bottling it all up. What you're going through sound and feels so heavy and I'm glad you chose to not keep it all to yourself. Seeing how you still want friends, connections and love tells me that you're still fighting and holding on. Depression and BPD sucks and I know it's heavily weighing you down and making you think negatively of all things where things may sound impossible and hopeless because of it but it isn't the truth. I'm proud of you for making it this far. I hope that someday you really feel that you're living your life rather than simply existing in it. I know that life is hard and treating you unfairly right now but I really hope that one day it'll be alright for you (for all of us). Life goes on and so do you. Keep it up, pal! You're never alone in this battle.